the worlds in my life are compartmentalized into ziploc bags. For the past few months i have existed in the Berkeley bag, re-breathing the same stale air. these past 8 days i climbed out of the Berkeley bag and dove into my Socal bag, where it turns out- a hub of my past exists. rewiring dormant circuitry that used to exist in your daily life-that's refreshing.
i guess i realized that i can seal the ziploc bags that contain worlds i don't like and hide them in a corner. deal with them later, maybe, when they are deflated.
currently in a wordless type of... hum de ho =[ i wish i could go back but at the same time I am actually looking forward to this summer in cupertino. I have something solid lined up, and i feel like there are a lot of things i could do in this town.
on another note. i've been having such a good hair week. yeeee i hope it stays
goodnight world <3
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
just for my memory
hellow. today is day 5 in socal and I figured I'd log some of my happenings before i forget this trip
THURSDAY: arrive in LA, shop with Mike+Ed and bought a pair of pretty shoes :) IMPULSE BUY FTW. Met up with Harold, swim with Janice and then go clubbin' followed by 3am mcdonalds run
FRIDAY: Run/Swim with the wife and make pasta for dinner. i have been trying to figure out what the hell else we did then i remembered- we ktfo. haha
SATURDAY: Wake up, go to noodle planet for pho and found HUGE ASS COCKROACH sitting behind vanessa and lorraine. Go to Janice's 4 year old cousin's birthday party, decorate everything in pink, head back to LA for Janice's birthday dinner @ Islands with Janice Nayson Lorraine Thomas. Ride up to LA hills, back home for "rest." Visit Jen Nguyen (soccer BFF since middle school), go to Jeff/Harold's. Stayed up till 5 watching freaks and geeks, HIMYM, eating brownies, grocery run, catch up with the boys.
Sunday: 5k bruinrun with vanessa and janice. head to magic mountain with thomas. churro, check. funnel cake, check. x2, check. mission accomplished
It always trips me out how easy it is to lose touch, yet how easy it is to reconnect with people you share a history with.
It's scary, a little, though...that people drift with time
THURSDAY: arrive in LA, shop with Mike+Ed and bought a pair of pretty shoes :) IMPULSE BUY FTW. Met up with Harold, swim with Janice and then go clubbin' followed by 3am mcdonalds run
FRIDAY: Run/Swim with the wife and make pasta for dinner. i have been trying to figure out what the hell else we did then i remembered- we ktfo. haha
SATURDAY: Wake up, go to noodle planet for pho and found HUGE ASS COCKROACH sitting behind vanessa and lorraine. Go to Janice's 4 year old cousin's birthday party, decorate everything in pink, head back to LA for Janice's birthday dinner @ Islands with Janice Nayson Lorraine Thomas. Ride up to LA hills, back home for "rest." Visit Jen Nguyen (soccer BFF since middle school), go to Jeff/Harold's. Stayed up till 5 watching freaks and geeks, HIMYM, eating brownies, grocery run, catch up with the boys.
Sunday: 5k bruinrun with vanessa and janice. head to magic mountain with thomas. churro, check. funnel cake, check. x2, check. mission accomplished
It always trips me out how easy it is to lose touch, yet how easy it is to reconnect with people you share a history with.
It's scary, a little, though...that people drift with time
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
86400 seconds in a day
to turn it all around or throw it all away
if your plane fell out of the sky
who would you call with your one last goodbye
be so careful who we let fall out of our lives
when we long for absolution there'll be no one on the line
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WHAT A STUD.
if your plane fell out of the sky
who would you call with your one last goodbye
be so careful who we let fall out of our lives
when we long for absolution there'll be no one on the line
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WHAT A STUD.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
why yes i do think these thoughts
PART I: Worse shit
whatever shit you're going through, its unlikely to be worthy of your wallowing. theres a lot worse shit going on than the shit going on in your life- wallowing wastes days. months. years.
as you grow up you realize life is not just sunshine and butterflies and candy. There are people who kill themselves because of unhappiness. In the past few days I've heard a few sad stories- a girl our year who grew up in a smucky neighborhood in a house of 10 kids with an adultering father and a schizophrenic brother who carried a gun around the house at all times. Made it all the way to Berkeley on a full ride + $20,000, climbed onto the roof of the parking garage next to spens black, almost jumped. A friend of mine has a younger brother who is currently hospitalized. With a recent diagnosis of severe depression after episodes of mental instability to the point where you can't even finish a coherent sentence-I would be scared. Plus the pressure of your peers questioning your sexuality and singling you out on top of academic/ college bound pressures I can only imagine how grim life might seem for him.
But maybe its true that just like beauty is in the eye of the beholder, the happiness you extract from life is a malleable, perception based quality?
PART II: WHAT IS STABLE?
I just drove down to Cupertino tonight to surprise my mom and to get away from the ridiculousness that is Berkeley during finals season. After a relaxing shower I sat down with my mom and had a talk with her. She told me about her business, which seems to occupy a good portion of her day every day. At the end of our convo, I wondered what dictates her mood at the end of the day but tha answer was already clear. A good day of tenants with flourshing business means sleeping happy, but an economic downturn like the one as of recent puts a dampen on the day and causes stress induced acid to ooze out into your stomach to kill butterflies. How bout yourself? Does the number of shots you take or the grade you got on that paper or the laughts you had with your friends or the solidarity of your career goals or how your BF/GF treats you today make the difference between weather you sleep soundly tonight? Shit! whats that? IT DOES?! then what the fuck in life can you STABLY depend on? when times are rough what do you lean on, and should you really rest your weight on that?
Part III: a little lighter.
haha part I and II are so emo. Why must i be so emo sounding! Im really not right now, just pensive.
-anyway, happy birthday KEVIN H, dinner was flantastic even the duck sausage pizza.
-I wrote my first YELP review today!
-Finals finals finals. what can i say. People turn into animals during this time of year (SRSLY. HUMAN-->VULTURES when it comes to seats at main stacks) So glad to be in Cupertino right now. Tom Bill i doubt you read this blog but you better hang out with me.
-HIRED.
-THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO once fyynalzshit is over: GRADUATIONS FOR SPESHOL PEOPLE, EPIC BACKPACKING TRIP + BEACH to kick of the summer :)
-SO I WAS THINKING... EDC or Wedding... tough choice.
"He's gettin some for his birthday...TEEHEEHEEE"- joyce, referring to froyo...dirty ho
spiritgreen@gmail.com:
yea if i have time im down
to hang out with you ;)
me: haa okay
well probably not this wek
cus aparently theres some tests or something (?)
but maybe summer!
spiritgreen@gmail.com: yea i think they're called finals
but i dont think they're for us
me: oohh! fi-nals? never heard of it
fine- al's?
spiritgreen@gmail.com: i think they're for seniors
bc it's like
their final years
makes so much sense now. phew. no studying to worry about
happy motherss day mama! love u and dont care who knows it <3
whatever shit you're going through, its unlikely to be worthy of your wallowing. theres a lot worse shit going on than the shit going on in your life- wallowing wastes days. months. years.
as you grow up you realize life is not just sunshine and butterflies and candy. There are people who kill themselves because of unhappiness. In the past few days I've heard a few sad stories- a girl our year who grew up in a smucky neighborhood in a house of 10 kids with an adultering father and a schizophrenic brother who carried a gun around the house at all times. Made it all the way to Berkeley on a full ride + $20,000, climbed onto the roof of the parking garage next to spens black, almost jumped. A friend of mine has a younger brother who is currently hospitalized. With a recent diagnosis of severe depression after episodes of mental instability to the point where you can't even finish a coherent sentence-I would be scared. Plus the pressure of your peers questioning your sexuality and singling you out on top of academic/ college bound pressures I can only imagine how grim life might seem for him.
But maybe its true that just like beauty is in the eye of the beholder, the happiness you extract from life is a malleable, perception based quality?
PART II: WHAT IS STABLE?
I just drove down to Cupertino tonight to surprise my mom and to get away from the ridiculousness that is Berkeley during finals season. After a relaxing shower I sat down with my mom and had a talk with her. She told me about her business, which seems to occupy a good portion of her day every day. At the end of our convo, I wondered what dictates her mood at the end of the day but tha answer was already clear. A good day of tenants with flourshing business means sleeping happy, but an economic downturn like the one as of recent puts a dampen on the day and causes stress induced acid to ooze out into your stomach to kill butterflies. How bout yourself? Does the number of shots you take or the grade you got on that paper or the laughts you had with your friends or the solidarity of your career goals or how your BF/GF treats you today make the difference between weather you sleep soundly tonight? Shit! whats that? IT DOES?! then what the fuck in life can you STABLY depend on? when times are rough what do you lean on, and should you really rest your weight on that?
Part III: a little lighter.
haha part I and II are so emo. Why must i be so emo sounding! Im really not right now, just pensive.
-anyway, happy birthday KEVIN H, dinner was flantastic even the duck sausage pizza.
-I wrote my first YELP review today!
-Finals finals finals. what can i say. People turn into animals during this time of year (SRSLY. HUMAN-->VULTURES when it comes to seats at main stacks) So glad to be in Cupertino right now. Tom Bill i doubt you read this blog but you better hang out with me.
-HIRED.
-THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO once fyynalzshit is over: GRADUATIONS FOR SPESHOL PEOPLE, EPIC BACKPACKING TRIP + BEACH to kick of the summer :)
-SO I WAS THINKING... EDC or Wedding... tough choice.
"He's gettin some for his birthday...TEEHEEHEEE"- joyce, referring to froyo...dirty ho
spiritgreen@gmail.com:
yea if i have time im down
to hang out with you ;)
me: haa okay
well probably not this wek
cus aparently theres some tests or something (?)
but maybe summer!
spiritgreen@gmail.com: yea i think they're called finals
but i dont think they're for us
me: oohh! fi-nals? never heard of it
fine- al's?
spiritgreen@gmail.com: i think they're for seniors
bc it's like
their final years
makes so much sense now. phew. no studying to worry about
happy motherss day mama! love u and dont care who knows it <3
Saturday, May 8, 2010
while talking to Julie (who i am studying with at the table i left) on ghcat:
Julie: where is the computer lab?
silly julie! NO COMPUTER LAB! I AM STANDING AWKWARDLY IN THE STACKS LIBRARY COMPTUER.
so i started to do this thing where i leave my computer at home when i go to stacks so i dont get distracted. but i end up just doing all the normal things on my computer at the stacks library. this includes: gchat, facebook, email checking, aim, etc.
awkwardly in the middle of the hall.
actually, make that double awkwardly. theres is no chair here. ive been standing here for the past 20 minutes at this gross computer gchatting, checking email, and most recently making a yelp account! be my friend ! <3 <3....
..
so anyway i decided i want to come home on sunday to surprise my momma! maybe ill take a lucky passenger to see my hometown :)
until next time,
awkward girl standing and typing loudly on main stacks computer for an extended period of time while procrastinating finals studying.
ps. hella just owned a test today :]
Julie: where is the computer lab?
silly julie! NO COMPUTER LAB! I AM STANDING AWKWARDLY IN THE STACKS LIBRARY COMPTUER.
so i started to do this thing where i leave my computer at home when i go to stacks so i dont get distracted. but i end up just doing all the normal things on my computer at the stacks library. this includes: gchat, facebook, email checking, aim, etc.
awkwardly in the middle of the hall.
actually, make that double awkwardly. theres is no chair here. ive been standing here for the past 20 minutes at this gross computer gchatting, checking email, and most recently making a yelp account! be my friend ! <3 <3....
..
so anyway i decided i want to come home on sunday to surprise my momma! maybe ill take a lucky passenger to see my hometown :)
until next time,
awkward girl standing and typing loudly on main stacks computer for an extended period of time while procrastinating finals studying.
ps. hella just owned a test today :]
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
friendship
i had a semi-thoughtful post but deleted it. it was about friendship.
on another note..
i'm currently waiting for pictures to be uploaded. its only like 1/3 done and ive been sitting here for at least 1 minute and am already getting impatient. Ha. Technology has made us all brats. OKAY so while I wait I guess I'll spill some loose thoughts in my head
+ I HAVE A GOAL AND WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN
+ I hate to be unreliable, and admit that's what I've been lately to some of my friends =[ I'll make it up if you'll let me.
+ Talking to adults is still scary. I can never sound sophisticated.
+ OLYMPIC TRIATHLON THIS PAST WEEKEND :) i look like shit after some brutal sunburns and bug bites, but hell yes it was worth it. pixures to come in a bit
+ My face is currently at level 4/5 in roundness and redness. too much food/drink this past week. its actually gross- the sunburn on my nose is actually discolored and peeling (TMI,yeah? YUMMMYYY)
YESSS PIX ARE DONE ttyl blawg
a piece of my weekend:
MILLIONS AND TRILLIONS OF BICYCLES. karim cyclery heaven.
just fo fun. rest on my fb
on another note..
i'm currently waiting for pictures to be uploaded. its only like 1/3 done and ive been sitting here for at least 1 minute and am already getting impatient. Ha. Technology has made us all brats. OKAY so while I wait I guess I'll spill some loose thoughts in my head
+ I HAVE A GOAL AND WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN
+ I hate to be unreliable, and admit that's what I've been lately to some of my friends =[ I'll make it up if you'll let me.
+ Talking to adults is still scary. I can never sound sophisticated.
+ OLYMPIC TRIATHLON THIS PAST WEEKEND :) i look like shit after some brutal sunburns and bug bites, but hell yes it was worth it. pixures to come in a bit
+ My face is currently at level 4/5 in roundness and redness. too much food/drink this past week. its actually gross- the sunburn on my nose is actually discolored and peeling (TMI,yeah? YUMMMYYY)
YESSS PIX ARE DONE ttyl blawg
a piece of my weekend:
MILLIONS AND TRILLIONS OF BICYCLES. karim cyclery heaven.
just fo fun. rest on my fb
Monday, May 3, 2010
FTR =]
ForTheRecord...
5/3, 5:58pm
ever indulge in a daydream so ridiculously impossible?
holy shit i think i just melted. A girl can dream.
5/3, 5:58pm
ever indulge in a daydream so ridiculously impossible?
holy shit i think i just melted. A girl can dream.
just...wow.
have you ever met the perfect person?
i'll probably never see you again, but that way you will remain perfect forever. goodbye.
i'll probably never see you again, but that way you will remain perfect forever. goodbye.
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