happy march in 45 minutes!!
lots to say but i'll keep this post short and sweet.
im currently livin' it up with my sister + her friends for her BACHELORETTE PARTAYY. event entailed: snowboarding, eating, watching movies, beach playing +................FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOd
desserts. after. every. meal. including the meals between meals. this is the roundest i've felt in quite a while.
i've decided i want to grow my hair out until it is a long and flowing mane. i have this problem where whenever i get impatient or stressed, i feel the need to chop off some of my hair is that weird? a habit i MUST RESIST if I ever want a simba-like mane
there are a lot of things on my schedule i need to reprioritize.
LEAVE for LAX in 6 hours. goodnightworllld
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
because i feel like typing
Just when I'm about to give up searching the web to find a bomb-diggity photo for this entry, i find this:
not even from online! from the "January 2009" folder in my computer. by dear amateur photographer who shares my blood :). really makes me want to take up photography. I realized even though I don't have a fancy pants SLR, my own hand me down fujifilm camera ain't so bad..
thoughts i currently have:
I am impatient and impulse driven. It's not uncommon for me to blindly act upon my momentary desires.
I am an all or nothing person, which often drives me to do things I deeply regret.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that these two flaws are present in different realms of daily life. My goal is to fix these two flaws, or at least lessen the extent that they are manifested in my life.
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sometimes i feel like there are few people that can put up with the cognitive explosions i detonate in my head.
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mang0o: it's weird how the human mind works, if you act a certain way your body will adapt to it
so basically,
go through the motions, and the process will become natural...
i like.
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I've always found interpersonal chemistry rather intriguing. How is it that you can you foster the most AMAZING brain tickling conversation with one person, but you always try to avoid interaction with another person because no matter how hard you try, the conversation always dries up like a thirsty grape. a raisin.
I suppose its because everyone in the world has a certain set of wavelengths that they think on. There's a certain frequency that you're born into, say, orange. And as you experience the world, you begin to understand it on a newer level and once in a while you will "one up" and gain a wavelength here or there. But it never strays too far from your original color, so you will maybe dip into Red or Yellow.
If you find another red or yellow, your interactions will probably be good. Find a green, you might end up with a few misunderstood jokes. Once you stray to blue or purple, you do your best to nod and smile and hope that they just asked a "yes or no" question.
what's scary is meeting someone from the infrared region. or, god forbid, the ultraviolet region. Those are the people you walk past on telegraph and dwight. Actually- they don't even have to be-. I've met lots of ultraviolets just walking through campus. The thing is- what i'm calling "ultraviolet" is relative. they don't have to be what we outwardly label as "crazy" because the issue I'm talking about here is the DIFFERENCE in wavelength between you and them. Who's to say what's sane and logical? It's relative. Maybe you're the crazy one then, huh?
and you know what's probably one of the most exciting experiences in the world? meeting another orange. I don't know if i've met an orange yet, but I definitely have met a few yellow-oranges and red-oranges. where's my orange orange?
i already finished this entry, and when I read this section i felt like adding another thought in:
what if an orange meets someone who is totally OUT of their realm of understanding. like what if orange meets a dog? just because they are completely different species does this mean that they can't form some bond that would be EXTRAordinary (quite literally)? HMMMMMm, something to think about... okay i think i draw the line for this analogy to my analogy right here.
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holy cow. I ramble too much. this is why i shouldn't stay up till 2am making M&M cookies. I just know it makes sense in my head.
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nite, world!
not even from online! from the "January 2009" folder in my computer. by dear amateur photographer who shares my blood :). really makes me want to take up photography. I realized even though I don't have a fancy pants SLR, my own hand me down fujifilm camera ain't so bad..
thoughts i currently have:
I am impatient and impulse driven. It's not uncommon for me to blindly act upon my momentary desires.
I am an all or nothing person, which often drives me to do things I deeply regret.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that these two flaws are present in different realms of daily life. My goal is to fix these two flaws, or at least lessen the extent that they are manifested in my life.
-- - - - - - - -- -- ----------------------- -- - - ------- - - --- - ----
sometimes i feel like there are few people that can put up with the cognitive explosions i detonate in my head.
--- ---
mang0o: it's weird how the human mind works, if you act a certain way your body will adapt to it
so basically,
go through the motions, and the process will become natural...
i like.
---
I've always found interpersonal chemistry rather intriguing. How is it that you can you foster the most AMAZING brain tickling conversation with one person, but you always try to avoid interaction with another person because no matter how hard you try, the conversation always dries up like a thirsty grape. a raisin.
I suppose its because everyone in the world has a certain set of wavelengths that they think on. There's a certain frequency that you're born into, say, orange. And as you experience the world, you begin to understand it on a newer level and once in a while you will "one up" and gain a wavelength here or there. But it never strays too far from your original color, so you will maybe dip into Red or Yellow.
If you find another red or yellow, your interactions will probably be good. Find a green, you might end up with a few misunderstood jokes. Once you stray to blue or purple, you do your best to nod and smile and hope that they just asked a "yes or no" question.
what's scary is meeting someone from the infrared region. or, god forbid, the ultraviolet region. Those are the people you walk past on telegraph and dwight. Actually- they don't even have to be-. I've met lots of ultraviolets just walking through campus. The thing is- what i'm calling "ultraviolet" is relative. they don't have to be what we outwardly label as "crazy" because the issue I'm talking about here is the DIFFERENCE in wavelength between you and them. Who's to say what's sane and logical? It's relative. Maybe you're the crazy one then, huh?
and you know what's probably one of the most exciting experiences in the world? meeting another orange. I don't know if i've met an orange yet, but I definitely have met a few yellow-oranges and red-oranges. where's my orange orange?
i already finished this entry, and when I read this section i felt like adding another thought in:
what if an orange meets someone who is totally OUT of their realm of understanding. like what if orange meets a dog? just because they are completely different species does this mean that they can't form some bond that would be EXTRAordinary (quite literally)? HMMMMMm, something to think about... okay i think i draw the line for this analogy to my analogy right here.
________________________________
holy cow. I ramble too much. this is why i shouldn't stay up till 2am making M&M cookies. I just know it makes sense in my head.
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nite, world!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
it's a dangerous slippery slope but all you need is the right rope.
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holy cows.
holy cow 1. my internal organs are exhausted. it's been a long, enduring week and i don't think i've ever felt an emotional toll like ths in a while. during nurtition discussion this afternoon, i could feel this strange sense of tiredness expanding throughout my body. for some reason, it felt good.
holy cow 2. throughout my adolescent life, i'd have these phases where i just SPLURGED out word vomit at 3am. it's now 3am but i dont know if i have the energy for more word vomit. why? because i spent a good 2 hours word vomiting earlier.
i'll tell you something. on my first day of college 3 years ago, i started a word document. It's password protected, and for a darn good reason. i keep all my dirty little secrets in there. you thought my FB notes were ugly? these bad boys are monster i keep in the closet.
it is my personal opinion that when you are going through an extremely significant spout of emotion, you should take the liberty to do whatever it is you feel. and once you do what you feel, take the privelage to record it. there are times when I regret not being able to remenisce in my strong memories i felt in the past, or am able to weakly do so since memory fades. i think i am going to start videologging things too; I want to remember at least a few thinks about youthful life say I decided to reflect back in 20 years.
oops i digressed again. actually nevermind this post has no direction anyway.
about my handy dandy word doc... Since 2010 started, my entries have been pretty wimpy, since I often get lazy or just am not in the mood to write. but today, my brain was just exploding with things to say. once my keys hit the board, i couldn't stop.
this single entry i wrote in my word doc topped records for most pages written in a single day. it stretches from page 9 to page 21 in calibri size 12 font. all full with word vomit. about this last year, about things i've learned, things i've celebrated, things i've hated, things that have made me tick. things that have made me vulnerable. it was the best therapy i've had in a long while, and now that i have my word vomit all spread out on paper, i feel strangely complacent. writing can be perfect therapy.
holy cow 3: i have 2 midterms 0n monday. darn. this past week i was so emotionally invested in the end of an era that I have not started studying. i am already padding my pants for the sure-fire ass kicking i am sure to receive come 3pm monday.
holy cow 4: i love my friends. i love them. there was a huge floating bush that has been dropping lemons onto my head since the semester started. the difference between angela today and angela a year ago was that I hadn't found you guys back then. to you guys, thank you for sheilding me.
holy cow 5: 3:38 am a wave of sleepiness falls over me. my eyes are starting to droop. but joyce is coming over in a few minutes to make mochi! must..stay..awake.. my hand just did that fidgety thing where it jumps up 3 inches and wakes me up when i am about to doze off
holy cow 6: you know what's embarrasing? implusively raising your hand to answer a question in lecture only to realize you have no idea what the answer is. why did i do that? haha rofl. thats embarrasing, wow it sucks to be angela at 4:30pm in 101 morgan hall.
holy cow #7: I need to get rid of this darn tanline
Thursday, February 11, 2010
you don't have to be filipino boy to be a youtube superstaaaaaa
although i dont like taylor swift that much, i love this song by these pepo
Friday, February 5, 2010
spring 2010
i dont know how i'm going to all this, do it but i will find a way.
on another note... day 10 without chocolate. not bad if i may say so myself!
on another note... day 10 without chocolate. not bad if i may say so myself!
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