Saturday, May 28, 2011
meandering thoughts
i think if i were to create my own dream society, every job would have a summer break. every employee at every firm, clinic, governmental establishment... would get a few months off just to explore and do what they want to do. Its a really sad day when people become content with knowing exactly what they will be doing that day.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
silly thought
I remember when I was in middle/high school I used to go on AIM and feel so keWL and pOPulAr when I had a lot of chat windows open. Over time, I realized that the satisfaction derived from friendship is far from a numbers game.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Last night I went out to a family dinner with relatives on my dad's side. Each time I go out with them I appreciate them even more. Last night, the dinner was in partial celebration of my genius Uncle Ben, who just last year got diagnosed with an ill fated leukemia :(. He cannot hug or shake hands with us, because he has to maintain distance from our germs because his immune system is weakened so much. Thus, I explained to him and my 60+ uncles/father what a "fist bump" was. Despite the odds, he still puts on the same jolly old Uncle Ben smile ^.^
Anyway, after dinner my cousin Helen gave me a ride back home to tino. Some background information about Helen: she graduated from my high school in 2001, went to NYU, became and investment banker in NY, got married to another investment banker last year, then started a 2 year MBA program at Harvard last fall. She's a self-described successful workaholic, but humble and friendly as heck. During our drive back home, Helen asked me where I would like to be next year. I told here I would prefer to stay either in Cali or the east coast, to which she expressed her utmost support of the latter.
"Angela, I've been out of California for a decade and I wouldn't trade the growing up I've done in these past ten years for anything"
She went on talk about the value of meeting people from different states, countries, and races and pretty much hit the nail on the head when she said that the Bay Area, as great as it may be, is SO small. There is so much more to learn and grow from meeting people from different backgrounds, social/economic statuses, and ethnicities.
And it's so true. My sphere of close friends consist of people who are from my high school district. Coming to Berkeley, I branched out to people to roomates and new friends from Alameda/San Leandro area. This is 40 miles from my house. Of my closest friends that I can count on my hands, I have 0 that are not Asian or from the bay area.
And then I think about those friends, and realize that all of their spheres seem to be equally small. If I could blanket statement this, I would have to say less than half of my friends have developed close relationships with people the didn't know in high school.
NOT TO SAY I don't appreciate the majority of my friends who are from my backyard, nor do I look down on people who follow suit. But... to put it most simply- my cousin tells me that there is an obvious difference in the way that her lifelong Cali friends think compared to the way she now thinks.
Having this small world view makes me itch to get out of here and end up somewhere really really far .
Anyway, after dinner my cousin Helen gave me a ride back home to tino. Some background information about Helen: she graduated from my high school in 2001, went to NYU, became and investment banker in NY, got married to another investment banker last year, then started a 2 year MBA program at Harvard last fall. She's a self-described successful workaholic, but humble and friendly as heck. During our drive back home, Helen asked me where I would like to be next year. I told here I would prefer to stay either in Cali or the east coast, to which she expressed her utmost support of the latter.
"Angela, I've been out of California for a decade and I wouldn't trade the growing up I've done in these past ten years for anything"
She went on talk about the value of meeting people from different states, countries, and races and pretty much hit the nail on the head when she said that the Bay Area, as great as it may be, is SO small. There is so much more to learn and grow from meeting people from different backgrounds, social/economic statuses, and ethnicities.
And it's so true. My sphere of close friends consist of people who are from my high school district. Coming to Berkeley, I branched out to people to roomates and new friends from Alameda/San Leandro area. This is 40 miles from my house. Of my closest friends that I can count on my hands, I have 0 that are not Asian or from the bay area.
And then I think about those friends, and realize that all of their spheres seem to be equally small. If I could blanket statement this, I would have to say less than half of my friends have developed close relationships with people the didn't know in high school.
NOT TO SAY I don't appreciate the majority of my friends who are from my backyard, nor do I look down on people who follow suit. But... to put it most simply- my cousin tells me that there is an obvious difference in the way that her lifelong Cali friends think compared to the way she now thinks.
Having this small world view makes me itch to get out of here and end up somewhere really really far .
Friday, May 13, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
x__________________________x
ever get the right idea then take it in the wrong direction?
my essay needs a makeover
my essay needs a makeover
Monday, May 9, 2011
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home for happy mommy's day, but this post is a hip hip hooray for my bro!
I'm really proud of my brother- as he sits next to me he's flipping through the pages of an accounting book, working on a HW problem. I feel like he's got a much better grasp on his life that my previous perception of him just half a year ago. He started taking a few classes at De Anza that he 1) enjoys and 2)may find helpful for his options in the job market. Another class he's taking is a 6am swim class which I joined him for this morning. Waking up that early, biking to the De Anza pool, then jumping into the water with him was a great way to start the morning and I couldn't help to be proud of the newfound discipline and humility he demonstrates these days.
We finally came home, cleaned up, ate breakfast and now we're sitting on the couch doing work while the TV plays in front of us. It's a comfortable Monday morning and I'm glad to spend it with my bro ^^
oh yes and happy mothers day mama!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
muthfrckinglabreport
MethyleneTetRaHydroFolate Reductase MTHFR
fruits of my labor. i pray this be the last lab report i ever write
Friday, May 6, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
...must...blag
These past few weeks have been so eventful that I literally can't keep up with it. I wake up each day forgetting the things I did the previous day. All I feel like sharing with you now is a few observations/realizations of the past week.
Thought 1: Consideration, judgement.
The more I talk to certain people, the more I realize that my expectations of their compassion and humility may have been overrated since first impressions. What dawned on me is the importance of mutual communication. I believe it common etiquette to ask "how was yours" after someone asks you how your day was. Likewise, eye contact is key to show that you care about what the other person is talking about. Worst case combination I feel are the certain buggers who look in the distance and just talk about themselves when you ask those simple courtesy questions. How are you? What did you do today? etc. etc.
I realize I firmly hold it against you if you do something to make me believe you are conceited or douchey. For instance, if you break my common rules of etiquette and human consideration I will almost always give you the stinkeye and think less of you. And once I make this discernment, try to reverse me. It's hard.
I don't think my standards are that high. Be kind. If I smile and say hello, reciprocate. If I show I am trying to be friendly, reciprocate. Even if you do not since you are not the happy go lucky type, I will still give you a chance to be a buddy in my book if you at least show you are interested in being a respectful/respectable person.
The minute you show you think you are better than me, or anyone else in the room, I am likely to brush off my regard for you.
Thought two: Money
Money. Can be a yucky issue. Over the past few weeks I've accumulated a few friends who owe me moneys. It's just a few dollars here and there, but if you add it all up it's definitely more than $20. The amount seems petty, but what bothers me is the principle. When people say "I will pay you back" I really hope they do this with true intention or else it is just uncool. Understandably, people forget. But I wonder if some people intentionally leave it unsaid when they are in debt. To me, I think one of the most uncomfortable situations would be if someone was like "Yo... why didn't you pay me back yet?" so I avoid asking this, as well as I avoid borrowing money if I know I can't promptly return it.
Thought three: Favors
Those who know what is going on in my life perhaps know that I have been poised to be in the "favor asking" position...because I need certain things from people in this crucial month. I need things from friends, future employers, past supervisors, teachers etc. I believe the kindest phrase I have heard this past month is:
"I would be happy to help you"
To my friend who said this, and to the people who meant it in their hearts, I send you an e-hug as I write this. I've mentioned in a previous blog post that I believe favors should be done without a lingering sentiment of debt or repayment on either side. I don't care much for the attitude of trying to find out how much someone paid for your birthday present so that you can give them the same amount back. Friendships should not be based on an I-O-U scale.
Sorry- I digress again.
What I am trying to say is that I truly, truly, truly, respect and appreciate those people who believe that having the upper hand is an opportunity to show support and kindness rather than an opportunity to gain leverage.
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d00pity doop. much more to say. boy is calling, will talk to you later, blawg!
Thought 1: Consideration, judgement.
The more I talk to certain people, the more I realize that my expectations of their compassion and humility may have been overrated since first impressions. What dawned on me is the importance of mutual communication. I believe it common etiquette to ask "how was yours" after someone asks you how your day was. Likewise, eye contact is key to show that you care about what the other person is talking about. Worst case combination I feel are the certain buggers who look in the distance and just talk about themselves when you ask those simple courtesy questions. How are you? What did you do today? etc. etc.
I realize I firmly hold it against you if you do something to make me believe you are conceited or douchey. For instance, if you break my common rules of etiquette and human consideration I will almost always give you the stinkeye and think less of you. And once I make this discernment, try to reverse me. It's hard.
I don't think my standards are that high. Be kind. If I smile and say hello, reciprocate. If I show I am trying to be friendly, reciprocate. Even if you do not since you are not the happy go lucky type, I will still give you a chance to be a buddy in my book if you at least show you are interested in being a respectful/respectable person.
The minute you show you think you are better than me, or anyone else in the room, I am likely to brush off my regard for you.
Thought two: Money
Money. Can be a yucky issue. Over the past few weeks I've accumulated a few friends who owe me moneys. It's just a few dollars here and there, but if you add it all up it's definitely more than $20. The amount seems petty, but what bothers me is the principle. When people say "I will pay you back" I really hope they do this with true intention or else it is just uncool. Understandably, people forget. But I wonder if some people intentionally leave it unsaid when they are in debt. To me, I think one of the most uncomfortable situations would be if someone was like "Yo... why didn't you pay me back yet?" so I avoid asking this, as well as I avoid borrowing money if I know I can't promptly return it.
Thought three: Favors
Those who know what is going on in my life perhaps know that I have been poised to be in the "favor asking" position...because I need certain things from people in this crucial month. I need things from friends, future employers, past supervisors, teachers etc. I believe the kindest phrase I have heard this past month is:
"I would be happy to help you"
To my friend who said this, and to the people who meant it in their hearts, I send you an e-hug as I write this. I've mentioned in a previous blog post that I believe favors should be done without a lingering sentiment of debt or repayment on either side. I don't care much for the attitude of trying to find out how much someone paid for your birthday present so that you can give them the same amount back. Friendships should not be based on an I-O-U scale.
Sorry- I digress again.
What I am trying to say is that I truly, truly, truly, respect and appreciate those people who believe that having the upper hand is an opportunity to show support and kindness rather than an opportunity to gain leverage.
----
d00pity doop. much more to say. boy is calling, will talk to you later, blawg!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Desperation
I am currently going through one of those dreaded yet exciting yet nerve wracking moments of desperation. This job is something I really. really. want. So much that I chose to forgo lecture time, sports med time, sleep, and playtime in order to prepare for this interview. I invested plenty of moneys and daydreams for this position, thinking about daily Berkeley to SF daily trips, so that I can be can be a self sustaining working woman- at least for a few months.
Just tell me! YES OR NO!!! :| you are making my stomach turn
Just tell me! YES OR NO!!! :| you are making my stomach turn
Sunday, May 1, 2011
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