i totally spelled withdraw like withdrawL <--with the extra L until spell check corrected me. I always thought there was an L! because people pronounce it withdraw-AL
gosh. anyway. it's been about 8 months now since we parted and today, right now, there's nothing I want more than to hold you in my hand.
My favorite pen and I were together for four and a half years. I still remember the day I adopted him- I had arrived in Ms. Chin's Lit Honors class and (although my memory of the exact moment is uncertain) I believe the poor thing was sitting all alone on my desk. His negligent, heartless, previous owner had carelessly left behind this stud of a pen on MY desk. Forlorn and misunderstood- it was only fate that I take care of him.
Let me tell you some things about him:
1. He was a brilliant bright red, perfect for paper edits and corrections on tests.
2. The ink viscosity was perfect. Not too liquidy (like the types that leave an ink blot when you let your tip rest on the paper) yet not too gel-y.
3. In our entire experiences together, I NEVER recalled an inkblob. You know, the type that leaves a little goober smudge, followed by a streak mark when your pinky accidentally runs over it as you are writing next line of your letter.
4. Conversely, he never gave me "air gaps" that some of pens give me when I write directly on a table without any paper buffering underneath.
5. The grip. Need I say more?
6. He was so fine. Funny- I believe he was structurally built as a .7mm, but the magnificence of this pen had actually allowed it to defy ALL laws of the universe...because he actually wrote like a .4!
7. Items 1-6 (especially 5&6) had the synergistic effect of beautifully transforming my handwriting! OH WHO IS THIS PERSON WITH BEAUTIFUL HANDWRITING THAT WROTE THIS WORD ON THIS PAPER? oh it was me! excellent.
In our four and a half years together, I gradually developed a profound appreciation for him and by our one month he had already become my favorite of the pencil pouch. By the time I began college, I had become so attached that I took the executive decision to bring him with me despite the dangers of losing him.
Freshman and Sophomore year we were solid together. He was the star of my pencil case- the one I turned to for my physics cheat sheets and math 16b corrections. then..
In December 2009, I lost him. I left him sitting at the big brown tables on level D of main stacks, something I won't ever forgive myself for. On a few occasions I had been so careless as to misplace him, but each time I took all necessary measures to retrieve him. This time, he was lost for good.
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Since then, I've searched EVERYWHERE (office depot, target, longs, multiple japanese stores) but have yet to find it. In fact- I don't think I've ever even SEEN that same model anywhere.
I've tried a few replacements with no satisfactory avail. I've been through pilot minipens...too fat. RSVP pens-always gripped a little too flimsily in my hand, plus don't even get me started with the OBESE INK BLOBS they consistently leave behind. UGH. There are times I even work with tissues on the side of my table, occasionally blotting the tip of my pen as preemptive attack on against blobs. A few decent pens have had a transient stay in my pencil case, but there's still a gaping hole in my pencil pouch where my baby used to sleep.
~!@#$%^&*() I don't know what i expect this post is supposed to do except give me an outlet to rant to. Ive been writing a lot of MCAT cheat sheets this past month but all the pens I've been through only remind me of the qualities in you that they all lack. Wherever you are, I hope you rest in peace. I hope you forgive me if I ever do find another pen that satisfies all my writing needs...but you will always be my special first.
